Past revisited

May I rant my deluded soul?

I haven't written anything for awhile and I kinda dislike the idea of sharing my thoughts on Facebook status. I want to show happiness only at my page so I decided to drop time in my blog.

Since, no one reads my blog, this will be my avenue for exploring my inner tragic self.
Lemme start with a few things (if you are reading this and have no interest whatsoever, I suggest you leave page or read something else)

The thing is I have had so many insatiable pain in my head right now. Thinking of the past, it hinders me from moving forward. Simply because I am more of the balanced person. I don't mind that people don't like me (Quote: You can never please everybody) but I have the tendency to hate people who pretends to be friends with you but at the end, back stabs you. So typical Filipino value, so immature and so lame.

Last year, on my senior college year back in the last school, I coped up with different people. I understand how the culture of the generation can be different from mine but what I don't get is they give a lot of care about everything in the world. If people don't seem to like your work, its fine. The point of that is that you accept it, move on and forget or accept it, make it better, feel good afterwards.

The thing about the people is "the sense of belonging", the one that makes you perfectly strong and powerful behind the barriers of people who believes in your ideals or "gusto". In the real world, it's not about that. The bigger picture describes that you don't need back up to recuperate your idea, all you need is optimism and stand. No matter what the opinion of others is about you, is not your concern.

But the point of the matter is this, people can have so much opinion on people. Good, bad, neutral, whatever it could be, it all boils down to "diversity of ideals". People are opinionated because they are bound to different experiences but what I was concerned about was the fact that unintentionally you do something and people began turning your back on you. By them people I meant friends. Friends you share your food with, you spend so much time with, do sleep overs, do eat lunch together; friends you wait up till their late classes so as you can share dinner with, friends whom you trusted your secrets too, you cried up when things go back, who knows how you would react to sarcasm, who wants to travel with you, who asked for your advises, and the list just goes on and on and you know what I mean.

I asked google to give me understanding. What is really the definition of FRIENDS? So I asked Merriam (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/friend) and she said " one attached to another by affection or esteem" well, probably there's that idea of attachment. So then don't get too attached?

I have nothing against them people, I just am concerned that they are too full of themselves. The fact that they ask you help, you do somethings to do, favors and all, well that is something else.

I simply cannot discuss who these people are but if they happen to come by this page, they probably will know who they are. Forgive my french "backstabbing bitches".. oohhh, there it is. I may have done a couple of things I may regret (or would want to change of) but at least I don't talk behind their backs. If I have some huge problems, I would tell them straight into their face and make them realize that it's better that way than making up stories. My question is, are they satisfied afterwards?

I know I was never perfect. I was bossy (according to few people) but lemme get this straight, I may be bossy but I don't just sit pretty idly at the side when work commenced. I would rather give requests but them people think I'm bossing around. I don't want to make it such a big deal until reality sunk in.

I have had so many tantrums in my life but never did I insist on grudges. Yes, even if I'm close to death (circa 2007). I was taught by my parents to forgive. I learned that from my mom. I have been so intensely difficult as a child and did some crazy things growing up but seeing my mom, after all the crap I did, loved me no less, it inspired me to do the same.

But some people, i think don't deserve that. I have only been observing and looking on the other side and waiting for my time, it actually never came. I know I have faults. I have done some crazy things. I have done so many things I might regret but I never regret being true to myself. Haters gonna hate as they say but there's nothing they can do about it.

If they had a problem with me (be it in the workplace or outside), the best thing that they can do is point it out at me otherwise they pretend nothing is wrong and you lived a life of lie with these people. THEY ARE SO MISERABLE WITH THEIR LIVES THEY CAN ONLY SEE OTHER PEOPLE'S MISTAKES!

I am so sorry about it. I may inject conflict with whoever is involved. I cried about it and I have moved on. Only today was different. Only that you realize you lose the once you trusted your stories with and whom you value the most and that is by far one of the most painful moments of my life.

This is the lesson of trust and faith. You can never ever trust anyone. You can only give them what is due. Don't over feed them with information, they will use it against you. Never trust someone too much of you, they will never live up to your expectations. They will become a parasite. They will feed on the things they envy about you. They will find mistakes in the most comfortable things in life. They will not give you that due respect you deserved. They will only come so slowly and squeeze your ideals and aspirations of life and friendship and they will talk behind your back because you don't like the same things are they do.

i can never say lastly because of the exasperation of anger i have inside of me, but since it was over a year, that anger faded away. I asked for forgiveness and they obliged. I was hoping they will say more but well, fake will always be fake, right?

I couldn't fathom such idea that there are people like them. And I trust that this message maybe trash but definitely a sigh of relief to my part. Maybe they watched too much teleserye all their life, got so attached and praised it with so much pride. Oh, I have nothing against that, it's just that, they get so many values I couldn't even imagine. I don't know if I got it right, coz I am not a fan of local teleseryes.

Much love to them! I hope in their hearts, there's a light. Remember, the more you put a person down, the better they got up, dirty and ready to get back at you.

xoxo,

i don't gossip girl

Retrospect of an Advance Earner: Investment Guide

After all the tragedies and difficulties, the interesting catapult of the century is how you can survive in the future - the value of your money is a constant trade off of inflation rate and market value of resources.

Generation Y and Z (Born in the 80's and 90's) are the most vigilant in the market today. In my own opinion, the significant rate of earning constitutes the significant rate of spending. A newly hired employee, who got his first paycheck would think directly on how to spend it. SPEND. It is the term of the century. With all the gadgets and great discounts we get from stores, we abruptly say.. "that is a good investment" - your small fortune can bring about a smile on your face when you can buy a new phone out from your own pocket.

Yes, it is a refreshing feeling to actually spend your hard earned money. At the end of the day, you can truly say, I can because I did. This is from your own blood and sweat. True to that, I have experience this unfortunate plight, I had been a victim of my own greed. What I don't know can destroy me.

Patience. This is probably the best virtue I should learn. Or we (for that matter), should learn at an early pace. Since I was working with a BPO company before, I can say, money can easily be splurged. After series of paychecks and add-on, I was a one day millionaire. I thought it was a layoff from my usual routine, I can definitely go to spa, have out of towns, spend on expensive shoes, bags, dresses which I use at work but it was a complete unlikely expense. It wasn't a guarantee for rainy days. 



As they say, "save it for the rainy days" doesn't mean save all your money in the bank and use the only money you may need for expenditures. Working in a corporate company, I have learned that:

SAVINGS = Cash on Hand - Expenditures

ooppps.. not really.

How would you know what expenditures are when you get to the bottom of your pocket and you felt like you need to buy the things that are unnecessary? At the end of the day, if you are likely to think of it this way, there are possibilities of getting debts.

With the onset of online banking, credit cards, online markets, we are all wild card entries for spending contempt. BIG WORD! We all like to preposition ourselves to the idea that we can budget our money wisely but budgeting our money will only be a sound decision if we are not defiant spenders or we invest our money to financial institutions other than the bank.

 This by far is one of the reasons why businesses sprout like mushrooms everywhere and investments can easily grow on trees because people are learning that EMPLOYMENT is not the key to earn more money, it may be an avenue but it may not be a solution to long term problems. 

Generation X and Y must also learn that INSURANCE is one good investment that we have to think about. It doesn't have to mean any company but on whichever need you desire. Insurance is a way to protect your assets and lessen liabilities in the future. Perhaps you have a family, in the worse possible case, it is of significant value to have a sustainable source once our loved ones died, especially if you are the bread-winner.

We tend to bully insurance and look down to it but less we know the significant use of this particular ownership. There is more to that than thinking about your death, it is more than meets the eye. In the Filipino context of insurance, it is only pushing people to pay for unnecessary things. Probably for now, we think that it may be unnecessary but in the long run, the unnecessary will be necessary.

How about investments? If you are young, its good to invest early. Why? Because you have a long run to grow your money. If you invest your money at the age of 40, you will only have at least 15 years or so for the money to grow. The difference with having to invest early is having that sense of discipline at an early age. DISCIPLINE. Big word. The better you gain in the future.

Here's why it is significant to invest now:

1.  Down economy and housing market means GREATER DEALS.
2.  Becoming wealthy and self sufficient has become easier
3.  This is the ultimate job security.

Here's a little link to learn about saving your money.

And for the win, easy quick guide to SAVE money. 

So, there goes your pocket. Save up for the rainy days and by rainy days I meant, future.

Want to know about it, talk to a nearest financial adviser and find out how.
Good luck and happy investing!

 re at http://financialhighway.com/45-ways-to-save-money/#DyoGGF1iDjyBtEFe.99

Weekend get-away

So last week, I was able to vouch myself from the usual food challenges of 

my daily life. So, cheers for happy weekend.

I was succumb to try out other things in store for me. 

Pasta and, chicken and pizza for this week.

Cheers!

Coffee chismisan with friends at Figaro.

And some pasta to go. :)

Mom was in town and we spent the week at 

Apo View Hotel. Since we're there, we caught ourselves

spending at Pagcor :(

spent too much.

  

So, while I was waiting for my mom, I stayed here.. and then we went to

T.G.I.Fridays

corn on a cob. nomnomnom it is.

ice cream and cake in one.

want more to say?

Since weekends are for movie dates, 

Before we watched a movie preview,

we stopped by YellowCab for a bite.

and my favorite potato wedges.

And take home pizza.

New York's Finest. :)

ice cream to fill the tummy after a good dinner.

And some mango tea. Must try.

Only in Davao. They brewed the mango and made it into a tea!

Awesome. 

Grab one at Coffee for Peace, Matina!

There you have you.

Food splurge it is.

Must love.

.darxieatives.

These are a few of my favorite things

When the dog bites, when the bee stings,

when I'm feeling sad.

I simply remember my favorite thing and 

then I won't feel so bad.

My red pumps that makes my legs awesomely sexy,

that F21 black lacy dress that is both comfortable and hot.

Stuff toys remind me of my youth,

books that keep me up all night,

Japanese food and some milk tea,

more chocolates.

more food to spare. food, food, food 

that delights my senses but keeps my shape.

One of my favorite film director/mentor- Paul Soriano

director of the award-winning film Thelma.

My Harry Potter scarf.

Good friends that can paint the town red.

My bestfriend in the world, the one who gives me all sorts of emotions.

That same guy who makes me fall in love over and over again for the past 5 years

and counting. My boyfriend xoxo.

oh yes, more chocolates to go.

Makes me go merry-go-round the clock.

:)

.darxieatives.

The world is sweeter around the bend

Oooh the sweetest thing

Because food is such a sweet thing, here I am, longing to punch myself with

more than just sweet nothings.. this time, I was off to Chocolatier Boutique Cafe with my

friend/classmate.

Since, we need a little perk me up before the sem starts (and our last one! hopefully), 

I treated myself decadence and sweet nothings.

Here are some of my favorite things.

Oh, yes.. Guiltless crime indeed.

The mango and melon combined with green and red apple on a semi-sweetened

chocolate made it extra special to the palate.

It was a lovely combination because it wasn't all that sweet.

The strawberry sauce also came surprisingly good.

Ritter Sport Chocolate... in all sorts of sizes. Yum.

Who says chocolates come in small packages?

The wonders of Chocolatier is how they combined chocolate

with different sorts of flavors.

Waffles can come oh soooo sweetly too.

But you can never imagine chocolate

with spice in it. Right? :)

But if you're fond of chocolates inside and out, this one's for you.

Minty fresh may also be soothing.

How about some tasty filling?

Sugar and spice and everything nice.

This one's for the road. :)

You can also have truffles and cookies of all sorts.

And if bouquet is too mainstream, 

why not try the chocolate bouquet.

Comes with a teddy too.

There you go. Merci *thank you*

Have some more delectable filling.

Come by if you have time.

Only in Ayala Abreeza in downtown Davao,

a place where you can find..

These amazing treats.

(all rights reserved on all the photos)

.darxieatives.

25 and counting

happy birthday starts with a cake and some candles to blow

for that one person I love the most.

because our wits will become our souvenir..

and that family and friends will come rescue us in time of trouble..

they are our allies and our worth adversaries at the same time.

Happy 25th Birthday Arch't Earvin Garry Yap

You are my ultimate friend, long time crush

and the love of my life.

Thank you for all the love in the world.

Be happiest today and onwards.

Say hello to your final quarter life year.

I will love you still.

Today, tomorrow and forever [if it were possible]

God bless you.

-darxieatives-